How are you?

How are you ladies doing?

I would love to hear updates on you. Are you currently Trying to conceive?

I’ve been praying for all of you! I pray this site is helpful in your journey.

Today is National Day of Prayer and prayer is a powerful tool we have at our disposal. if two of us agree on anything it is done according to Matthew 18:19.

Cast your cares on him because he CARES for us!

I’m thinking of you!

Rian

Trust

I hope this post finds you well and encouraged. I’m encouraged today not because my life is perfect or everything is going my way, but by the hope and trust I have in God. Problems, difficulties and trails, I’m sorry to tell you, will come. But, it’s our posture or stance when the problems come that's important.

I’m obtaining my master’s in psychologist and one form of therapy is framing. What’s reframing you ask? Reframing is choosing to focus on the best part of every situation. I can sit all day and sulk and have a pity party just for me. I’m infertile and pregnancy eludes me, so I’m sad. I don’t want to get out of bed today because my life isn’t going perfectly, or I can say, yes, I’m infertile but my infertility brought me closer to God. The hugs I get from my son mean so much more to me because he’s an answer to prayer. My infertility gives me the creditability I need to be able to minister to others who are believing God for healing because I've been there.


I know hurt and pain, but in every bad situation I find peace in knowing God’s ordering my steps. I’m reminded of one of my favorite verses, Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge him, And he will make your paths straight.”(Proverbs 3:5-6). We can’t possibly predict our future, but we can be sure if we trust God he will lead us.



I can’t say a year from now, two days from now, or tomorrow I won't be disappointed or hurt, but I know if I have God in front of me, I can get through anything. I’m praying for all of you. Please join this blog to receive monthly updates and I pray you're encouraged by them. Until next time...joy, hope and love be yours.

First-Rate Thoughts

We've just celebrated my son’s first birthday. It’s still funny for me to say I have a son…considering. I like to think I always trusted God blindly and never worried about anything. I would love to say I’m a “super Christian” lol….but that’s not my story! I use to be a worrier…I'd worry if my husband would make it home safe, will I get in an accident, and the list went on… that’s the bondage the enemy wants us to live in. He wants us to constantly worry about things we can’t control. That’s his way…he tries to get into our thoughts. He wants us to live in fear. Though, I’m reminded of God and the authority he’s given us by prayer. I love the adage, “why worry when you can pray.” It’s a bit cliché’ but the premise is true. About two year ago, I had a HSG preformed on my tubes to see if there was any blockage present. The results determined I had blockage on both sides of my tubes. The news was DEVESATING to me. I was floored because I felt that God had given me a barren womb. You can’t have a baby without working tubes, right? I was beside myself. I thought I would never have a child. I was ashamed. I let my mind wonder, trying to think of things that happened in my past that caused this. See, that’s how the devil works. He wants us to beat ourselves up. Blame ourselves for infertility and carry the shame in secret. We can’t let him win. Psalm 149:14 says, we’re marvelously made by him. It’s satan’s job to make us feel we aren’t special and adored by God. God wants the BEST for us…even more than we want for ourselves. We can’t put limits on God and expect miracles to occur. How arrogant of me to think God couldn’t give us a baby regardless of my condition. God’s grace is sufficient for our needs. That means whatever need or problem God’s love is enough. Worrying doesn’t produce anything but gray hair. But, praying, standing on God’s word, and lining it up with your circumstance have proven results. I don’t consider myself a worrier anymore…I’m a visionary. Whenever a negative thought pops in my head…I flip it and imagine the opposite. It causes me to think first-rate thoughts according to Philippians 4:8. What are you imagining? The Bible says, God is able to do exceeding and abundantly above all we can ask or think. Are your thoughts first-rate?

And Me

Hannah, Elizabeth, Rachel and Sarah are names that may seem generic or nonspecific for some, but for me, these names have meaning. Growing up in church, I’ve heard Sarah’s story, and her struggle to have a child. I can remember hearing about Hannah’s angst as she wrestled in the spirit for her son. As a child, I couldn’t have known the impact these women would have on my life, but God knew. H.E.R.S. stories sparked my faith and inspire me to trust God. A few years back, in my early twenties I was told that my “healthy body” was reproductively challenged.

I remember thinking, it’s my duty to give my husband a child, but what if I can’t. Will he not want me anymore? I’m broken. It’s amazing how the enemy tries to deposit negative seeds in our minds. Over several years, the depth of my infertility was explored and by all counts I was infertile. There wasn’t a reproductive organ in my body that actually worked. Who knew! I looked healthy and by all counts was healthy, but this. I couldn’t understand why God made me this way. Why me? What did I do? I mean, come on, there’re a gazillion of women out there who have kids, and don’t even want them, and I’m TRYING and nothing. I was beside myself. Finally, after days, and months of a pity party, I listened to God. I started finding out what God said about infertility. I realized that infertility was a disease just like any other sickness, and Jesus gave us power of sickness and disease. Matthew 15:21:28 details that healing is the children’s bread. Thus, infertility and me didn’t make sense. Infertility didn’t have a right to be on my body. So, I took God at his word, that by HIS stripes I’m healed. I won’t mislead you to believe my struggle with infertility was/is without pain.

Through our journey, countless tears were shed. But, I dared to believe God regardless of what the doctors said, what my body said, or what the enemy said. I’m resolved to believe God is God, and God doesn’t have limits. God gave me infertility, and I no longer wonder why. Without infertility, how could I have imagined that it’s possible to have a child with flawed tubes, a mangled uterus , and ovaries that are incompetent. I’m not selling you a dream, this happened. God is not limited to my imagination or yours, he surpasses it. I’m not selling God short, I want more of what he has for me. We want another baby, and I'm sure God will do it!

Infertility was my destiny, God knew what it would take to bring me to a place of complete faith. Through infertilty God gave me a ministry...yes, through sorrow God gave me a passion, I am resolved to eradicate the stigma associated with infertility. It’s my desire we not suffer in silence, but a network be formed of strong women believing God for children and seeing results. Your issue may not be infertility, but the principle is the same. If you want to see results you have to do something. Faith without works is dead. So, it's up to us to do something and God will move. What are you going to do today, to make your vision reality?

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